I shiver when I hear your name

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-30T17:39:00

2004-06-30T21:39:27Z

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I knew it

2004-06-23T21:09:39Z

I knew Mary Kate Olsen was anorexic...I called that shit like 2 months ago...I feel really bad for her in the impending months.

wtf?!

2004-06-23T17:52:44Z

Gavin Rossdale hugging Jude Law makes Ashley Isenhower a very happy woman...fer real they look like brothers.

sigh

2004-06-23T17:18:07Z

Just counting down the days...3 days till beach and Wes *squee*...that sexy sexy man (too bad I can barely remember what he looks like, I sure hope he's still as cute as I thought it was 3 yrs ago)

JON MOVED BACK TO RALEIGH!

survey from Tina

survey
Ten Things I Love:
10. living out here and waking up to complete and utter silence in the morning with the sun shining through my room and the birds chirping...not even kidding
9. waking up at 3 in the morning, realizing I can still sleep
8. when people surprise you by doing something utterly amazing
7. seeing a movie that makes you cry just because it's so beautiful
6. when my parents tell me how proud they are of me
5. the fact that I can see my brother whenever I want now
4. being comfortable enough to be who I am
3. the fact that homosexuality is accepted as something other than a disease
2. straight men who are nice to gay men...no joke, sexy as hell
1. best thing ever: laying out in the sun with your two best friends on the beach all day long, then walking back home to my beach cottage, sun burnt, dry hair, and relaxing on the porch swing until bed...*sigh* 3 DAYS!

Nine Things I Miss:
9. getting up early on Saturday and going to run errands with my dad...even if he didn't want me around
8.
7. beach trips with Jen, Sarah, and Claire...haha we fought, but they were fun, you have to admit it
6. not worrying
5. my sisters
4. 2 week beach trips with the fam
3. my grandpa
2. when we could buy little things without budgeting first...our economy really blows people...
1. getting really excited when "Snick" or "TGIF" would be on...

Eight Things I Want To Do Eventually:
8. learn to live life without anxiety...that must be really nice
7. become comfortable with every aspect of myself
6. get married and have lots of pretty babies
5. gain the respect of others
4. have people take me seriously without thinking I know absolutely nothing...wow that would be fab
3. go to NCSA and have the best time of my life
2. win an Oscar
1. be successful no matter what road my life goes down

Seven Things I Dislike:
7. feeling alone when I'm really not
6. when people dislike you before they've ever talked to you
5. realizing how important someone is after they're completely out of your life
4. learning someone you've loved has lied to you and not knowing if they've ever told the truth
3. hate crimes
2. when religious figures feel they have the right to banish all homosexuals to hell, when they've spent the last century blowing alter boys in the confessional...homophobes in general...wow, you'd think I was gay with all my gay rights advocacy
1. intolerance

Six Favorite places:
6. my living room
5. Jen/Claire's house
4. drama room during a show
3. my thinking spot by the old church across from the meadow...this is why I love kdale
2. Oma and Pake's ranch in Oregon in the valley overlooking the river...in the living room with Pake watching tv while Oma's cooking Brisket
1. Beach cottage in Nags Head...3 days!

Five Songs I Can Hear Over and Over:
5. She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5
4. This Love- Maroon 5
3. In My Place- Coldplay
2. Peices of Me- Ashlee Simpson
1. Piano Man- Billy Joel

Four Words That Describe Me:
4. stuborn
3. dreams much bigger than i can ever accomplish
2. friendly
1. passionate

Three Things I Want To Change:
3. ignorance
2. intollerance
1. people who just don't seem to get it

Two Kinds of People I have sympathy for:
2. people who are so conformed into their problems they don't see their own solution
1. depressed people

One thing i want
1. for life to be simple

I love how you can tell!!! OOOOOOOOH I love how you can tell!!

2004-06-23T00:37:11Z

<3 Ashlee Simpson, omg she's my new fav person ever...

Claire's mom said I looked skinny! <3 Mrs. Jordan...lots and lots...:)

So, today was awesome, I got to hang with two bestest friends in the whole wide world all day long, so it was sooo amazing! *in manor of Ashlee Simpson when she saw Jessica* "I love my friends!"...

so, last night, Claire came and got me and we went driving around...shit, where'd we go? I don't even remember..............w/e, we went to D'lites which is an ice cream place where Travis (Claire's bf) works after dinner to get sum free ice cream (<3 Trav) and he's so cute, he remembered my name haha...which normally wouldn't be that big of a deal but Claire says she always talks about me and Trav says..."wait...the one in the dress...from the video...right?" so I came in with Claire and he closes his eyes and goes "ummm ASHLEY!" haha I love to stare at him and make him feel uncomfortable...like the judgemental best friend.

then we went up to Blockbuster and rented "Swimming Pool"...damn the French and their lesbionic films! It was QAF but with women...and there was no actualy sex, just LOTS AND LOTS of sexual tension between this old lady and this girl MY AGE...the guy @ the desk said it was "provacative but good"...no, sir, you should have said "hey, there's an old lady who wants to do this skinny blonde french girl, don't pay money for this"....hmmm

Then Claire and I snuck out around 2 to go to Travs, but he was alseep...loser what up with that?! Then we came back and I had about 7 different alcoholic drinks within a 2 minute span...vodka, tequilla, this lemon shit, something called mohawk, cherry something or other, and other things...later I took a pepcid because my stomach was hurting from cramps and I woke up this morning and my tounge was BLACK...no joke...BLACK...and we think it was the mixture of drinks and pepcid...and I had some pamprin earlier, but we don't think it had anything to do with that...

....so this morning, we woke up around 8, went to Jen's to take her her present, grabbed some Starbucks (before we got Jen), then went over to the Record Exchange and got 10 CDs for $35 (music to listen to on the way to the beach) mainly stuff from the 90s...lots of Dawson's Creek type songs...love it love it...and it's gonna be even cooler cuz Claire's parents said she could drive. Then we went to Subway, then to Starbucks again (Jen wanted a Java Chip), then to Goodberry's...oh WAIT! Before all of that, we all went to Target and bought THE CUTEST swimsuits ever...I love mine soooo much yayyyy...but yeah, later, we just ranomly decided to go to the pool, so we went to Jen's uncle's apartments (some really nice apartments in Cary called "The Stradford") and swam/sunbathed...then we took Jen home...I went back to Claire's to hang then we went to see Trav and he said he could fix my shoe SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET, then I came home...

...and now I'm gonna watch QAF!!! This show is just scary now...some guy is trying to get with Ben because he's wants to infect himself with HIV...these people are knows as "bug chasers" and they, honest to God, go around trying to get infected with HIV because they are so scared they'll get it anyway and they figure it's inevitable (because COME ON, the # of gay males who have HIV is toooo much), so they want to go ahead and get it over with by infecting themselves...it's just...wow...and some people in NYC infect themselves so they can get government aid and housing b/c even some disabled people up there don't get financial aid...it's just sad they feel they have to resort to something like that.

so yay time for QAF!

hurrah!

2004-06-21T22:15:06Z

Am going to Claire's tonight, spending the night, then we're going swim suit shopping...again...tomorrow and hopefully Jen can come to! We haven't all hung out since school let out...well we probably have, but not in a while...awww yay! We're gonna give her her presents too...Claire and I are such bad best friends...it's like 3 weeks after her birthday hahaha

I'm all post PMS, so I can fit into my pants now! HURRAH!

too cloudy to tan :(

2004-06-21T19:40:12Z

Everyone should see The Life of David Gale...important political issues! v. good movie. I thoroughly enjoyed it...

5 days till Nags Head!

OMG YESSSSSSSSS!

2004-06-20T21:16:34Z

So, do you remember Westry?...well, Heather does, but he's the 21 yr old nephew of my mother's friend down @ Nags Head (the woman who's cottage we're staying at). ANYWAY, there is an upstairs (where the family stays if they wanna come...but usually its just us) and a downstairs (that they rent out to guests...such as myself and my family and Claire)....and guess who's living @ the beach this summer and staying in the same house I am?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

WESTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How happy does this make Ashley? very happy! for two reasons:
1) eye candy and he'll be wearing a swimsuit
2) he can buy us alcohol
SWEET LIFE!

the woman told me to talk to him because he goes to ECU and he can tell me a lot about it...haha fuck if I'm talking to him about *colleges*...must get period. must get unbloated before Westry sees me in a bikini...holy moly, he'll be down there the entire time, THIS MAKES MY LIFE!!

omg uuggghh

2004-06-20T17:17:04Z

Seriously, I need to get my period...like NOW...I leave for the beach on Friday and I refuse to be bloated in my bikini...cuz I love my bikini and think I look damn cute in it...oooooh I need the pamprin.

haha thanks for reading my period entry...*thumbs up*

gah gah gah!

2004-06-20T01:27:37Z

am wondering if I can indeed go through with planned eyebrow piercing...I was just looking at pictures and I don't know if those mofos pierced THEMSELVES, but it looked FUCKED...but the good pictures far outweighed the bad and most of the bad pictures were of people who looked like backyard rednecks, missing teeth and whatnot.

I don't want anything huge or outlandish, I think eyebrow rings are adorable...yes, I said adorable...I mean, they're edgy to a point, but at the same time...it's an EYEBROW piercing...eyebrows don't scream non conformity, at least not to me anyway...if I wanted to be a non conformist, I'd pierce my nipple.

hurrah for the candy company

2004-06-19T22:44:22Z

Best thing ever: I'm chewing skittles gum...yes GUM, tres bien.

he should marry me, he's known me longer

2004-06-19T20:28:26Z

window in upstairs garage stairwell proves to be v. effective for spying on Luke...who's home (!!!!), but engaged unfortunately. hmph. He should be marrying me...I've known him since I was 2 and he was 15...okay, yeah, that's sort of creepy.

ouf, talks of waking up @ 5 on Friday to get to Nags Head by 9...*sigh* can't wait :D

Went with mom to Wendys and Cleaners, then went with dad to Lowes, the Wireless Store, Barnes and Noble, and McDonalds...he should never complain ever again about me dragging him shopping- he spent half an hour picking out a cell phone case...my dad is such a metro, eh.

black people aren't fond of white yard sales

2004-06-19T14:05:27Z

okay people, you need to buy shit gaaah! It would be my luck that when I get involved in the family yard sale, they don't buy stuff...last time, my parents made $100 off of nothing. Bloody bastards. Stayed up until 4 am watching "Misery" and Ren and Stimpy...solid.

ps- Cold Mountain comes out on two disc DVD the day I get paid...coincidence? or destiny? you decide. meh, I'm gonna go read Edge of Reason.

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-18T19:01:00

2004-06-18T23:02:38Z

They caught my burgalar!!!

The detectives coming by on Monday so I can identify some pictures!

MUAHAHAHA!...that bitch got played by a 16 yr old girl lying on the couch with a cloud blankey!

ugh

2004-06-18T20:36:09Z

Just got off the phone with Jen and I can tell something's bothering her, that plus her lj entry about feeling neglected leads me to believe she feels Claire and I are leaving her out. Jen, I love you, you know where you rank on my love chart, but Claire and I ARE NOT trying to leave you out...I don't have a license, so you can't blame me and if you WANT Claire to pop by, CALL HER! I'm not hogging her, rarely ever do I actually ASK her to come over, we just happen to be on the phone when she's bored and she decides to pop by, it's not a planned "lets leave Jenny out" sort of thing.

I don't like playing "guess my problem" with people, if you have a problem with someone you need to let them know. I get flack from people...okay, well only Jenny, about how I dwell on problems and don't let things go...my reasoning is: problems are not going to get solved if you ignore them and give them a rain check. Sometimes you need to sit down on the phone (or IM in most cases these days) and duke it out until its done and its resolved, if you "give it time", it only allows the problem to inflate. The big argument with me, Jenny, and Claire a few months back suffered from not communicating...Jen just wanted to forget about it and drop it, when YOU KNOW problems do not solve themselves and so we didn't resolve anything at that time. Claire and I sat there, even though we were arguing, and talked it out until we were done and everything was out in the open and we understood each other and THAT'S how you solve a problem. Running away from things never work.

This isn't just because of Jenny, everyone does this and it drives me insane...harboring your feelings toward someone only escelate the problem and then it turns into something much bigger. I'm tired of calling Jenny just to have her be short with me, I'm not stupid, we're best friends, I know when she's pissed off.

This is my first real summer in a long time and it would really suck to spend it with her being mad at me...but she's never the one to make the first move, so I guess in my own lame way, I've just made the first move. Hopefull she'll read it and do something, whether it be calling me, or telling me fuck off...either one would be a step in some form of direction.

gah! overslept!

2004-06-18T16:44:57Z

I totally didn't mean to wake up at 12! fuckety fuck! I have to get all my stuff ready for the yard sale tomorrow and clean out my desk and I'm sooo groggy...but I don't know why. Tomorrow I have the yard sale, then Claire and I have to volunteer down @ Theatre in the Park for this show...and I don't even know what it's called! It's a play by Tennessee Williams and that's all I know...then we have to do it again on Sunday. The Notebook comes out next Friday HOLY CRAP I'M SO EXCITED! <3 Ryan Gossley and James Marden...*sigh* okay, better go get busy!
xoxo Ash

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-17T17:55:00

2004-06-17T21:57:18Z

Harry Potter v. good, like it lots.

Strange dementor creature scared me to where I literally fell out of my seat, not good.

Good popcorn.

I kept imagining Ewan McGregor as Lupin b/c that's who they originally wanted to play that role...and I honestly don't think our Ewan would have done that role satisfaction

Gary Oldman v. good.

Emma Watson- new favorite person ever...next to Ashlee Simpson

Harry Potter- v. cute

Ron...v. strange looking

sigh

2004-06-17T15:33:16Z

I love summer...I thought I'd be bored, what with no job and no mode of transportation, but I'm having fun damnit! I'm actually really happy I don't have a job, I actually want to enjoy my summer for a change. I wish Claire and I got paid for that camp thingie in July...but us volunteering for that is more or less us getting our faces out there, so it'll serve its intended purpose.

a week from tomorrow a week from tomorrow!!

haa...we traded Irbe...yeah we would, good job Jim Rutherford...you're setting the Hurricanes up for another losing season...hurrah!

I need to go get dressed don't I?

LATER!
-Ash

yay fun day

2004-06-16T23:02:53Z

I spent the morning watching Dawson's Creek and reading BJD, then Claire called, was bored. She came over, we went to Blockbuster (I said it was fun, not original). The man that was working today is always there when I rent QAF, so he already thinks I'm weird, then Claire was laughing about something and knocked the shelf over...but he was nice...Then we went to Lowes, got Sour Patch (squeee), cereal (see, Claire was deprived of cereal when she was a child, so she likes to splurge on things like Cocoa Puffs and Fruity Pebbles when my child friendly pantry isn't stuffed with good cereal), and we got some Stewarts mmmmmmmmmmm, then came home, watched "Along Came Polly" - cute movie, then watched "Footloose" then discussed going to see HPOT tomorrow...it's weird...you'd think with one of us having a license, we'd find better things to do, but we don't.

so yay going to see HPOT tom...exciting...but not extremely...I like HPOT, but I've never been like "OMFG HPOT CAME OUT!!!!! OOOOMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!"....but hey! to each his own.

yay survey!

2004-06-16T13:10:17Z

1) starting time: 8:54am
2) your name: Ashley
3) Nicknames: Corkie, Ash, ho...thanks Jenny
5) e-mail: abisenhower@yahoo.com
6) eyes: brown
7) Height: 5'7"
8) pets: Charlie! (my homo pup)
9) siblings: 2 sisters (Carisa, Christina), 1 bro (Ben)
10) been so drunk you almost blacked out: nope
11) taken any illegal substances: pft no...not that I wouldn't...ha! me? morals? noooo
12) Gone out into public in your pajamas: um def
13) missed school because it was raining: um nooooo
14) set any body part on fire for amusement: ya know...I actually haven't.
15) kept a secret from anybody: yes
16) written a hate letter to one of your friends: haha not a hate letter per ce...
17) wanted to hook up with a friend: ew yes and I did...and he's a bastard.
18) cried during a flick: all the time
19) Had a crush on your teacher: MR. DOWNING!! *lewd tapping motion* awww and Waffles! I love them both so much...*sigh*
20) Told your significant other you thought someone was hot: I seem to remember going on and on about my hot dance teacher around David when he was pissing me off
21) Ever thought an animated character was hot: um John Smith...hi?
22) planned your week based on the tv guide: holy crap yes
23) prank called someone: hahahaha "I have terrets SHITFUCKBITCHASS"...was lots of fun
24) been on stage: plenty
25) fav. shampoo: Garnier Fructice
27) fav. color: blue
28) day or night: night
29) summer or winter: omg I love both...hmmmm...Winter- just because it's Christmas and that's my all time fav time of the yr
30) wassup or how you doin': how you doin'
31) lace or satin: satin
32) fav cartoon characters: Gus HOLY CRAP! Gus is the shit...(from Recess)
33) do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: nope not right now
34) like anyone: haha um...*nods head* nooo
35) out of all your friends who have you known the longest: that are still my friend...Claire
36) who is the loudest: Heather J
37) who is the shyest: Allison
38) who do you go to for advice: my hos (Jenny and Claire)
39) who do you get the most surveys from: Julia haha
40) who do you cry with: Claire probably

*****IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS*****

41) cried: yes
42) cut your hair: no
43) worn a skirt: yes
44) been mean: yes
45) been sarcastic: all the time
46) met someone new: I don't think I did...
47) talked to someone you have a crush on: hehe
48) missed someone: yes
49) hugged someone: yes
50) fought with your parents: yeah
51) wished upon a star: naa
52) laughed till you cried: yeah
54) watched a sunrise: yeah
55) went to a beach at night: no, have't been to the beach yet, GOING IN A WEEK SQUEEEEEEEEEEE!
56) spent quality time alone with a special someone: nO
57) read a book for fun: haha last night
58) ate a meal: mmm I'm hungry
59) are you lonely: no, my homo pup is here
60) are you happy: yes

*****DO YOU BELIEVE******
61) God/devil: yes
62) love: yes
63) the closet monster: no
62) Big bang theory: no
65) heaven/hell: yes
66) superstitions: I don't know...I say I don't...but then I'm superstisious...

*****GENERAL INFORMATION*****
67) what is your full name: Ashley Blair Isenhower
68) whens ur birthday: September 23, 1987
69) Backstreet boys or Nsync: BSB
70) when was the last time you showered: yesterday
71) what color of pants do you have on right now: black soffes
72) last thing you said online: It's too early for IM
73) what are the last 4 digits in your phone #- 6223
74) last thing you ate: cheerios
75) the person you want to spend the rest of your life with: mmm Vrbata...na, he'd kill me...
76) how's the weather right now: cloudy
77) what are you thinking of right now: food...and how we don't have any...
78) ever smoked pot: no
79) what did you do last night: tv, nothing
80)how are you today: pretty cool
81) what makes you happy: friends
82) fave cd: Coldplay "Rush of Blood to the Head"
83) have you won any special awards: some LAX awards...and acting award once...A/B honor roll a few times...
84) fave music: rock
85) fav food: veggie lo mein, chineese
86) fav movies: Moulin Rouge, The Talented Mr. Ripley, Cold Mountain, Never Been Kissed
87) fave day of this year: CHRISTMAS
88) fav smell: plumeria
89) do you like to dance: yup
90) fast or slow: either or
91) are you too shy to ask someone out: no, I never have, but I would
92) ever been in love: pft no
93) stupidest thing you have ever done: followed 3 college guys back to their apartment and bummed smokes from them...we could have been killed...it was stupid, but would I do it again? fuck yes they were hot.
94) do you like scary or happy movies better: scary
95) on the phone or in person: in person
96) lust or love: love
97) if you could change something about yourself what would it be?: I'd have more willpower
end time: 9:10

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-16T08:45:00

2004-06-16T12:47:52Z

Why is it men can go jogging with no shirt on, but I go for a walk in a tank top and get hit on?...is it my ta ta's? <3 Kirsten Dunst. Was up late reading Bridget Jones's Diary...wish I was at Governors School...but then again, wouldn't want to be around people like Scott Waldrup all summer...cocky bastard. I use to think he was so adorably fabulous...until he threw a hissy when he didn't get casted as Huck...*shakes head* I need to do something with someone today...haha no real event, just something with someone.

yay!

2004-06-16T02:12:36Z

Sex and the City is on TBS!! I haven't seen it since we got rid of Digital Cable...have you ever wondered why I became so obsessed with Queer As Folk? Now I get my straight version of QAF SUPER!

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-15T17:50:00

2004-06-15T21:52:16Z

Okay, so at first when Scarbs put us(me and Claire) in 3/4, then moved us to 7/8, then put us right back in 3/4 and that whole fiasco with feeling useless and depressed was happening, I thought it would ruin my summer...but to my surprise...I've thought about it maybe three times since I've been out and it's turning out to be a great summer so far...this is tres tres bien, no?

Maybe I've learned to handle things better? Matured? I sure hope so, I'm not good at dealing with depression...

iamtheicebox @ 2004-06-15T15:43:00

2004-06-15T19:51:00Z

When I get my first apartment, I'm gonna need furnature on wheels because I can't help but move things all over the place...I was just suppose to clean my room, I moved my bed, my dresser, and my bookshelf...I moved the bed to the other side of the room, where it was when it was my brother's room. hmmm I'm tempted to move the other bureau...omg I can put it near my desk! ack yes! wait will it look to crowded on that wall though?...I can always move it back...Jenny's shoes came today and I want them...it's gonna rain...Claire called me on the way to her $800 SAT prep course (!!!!) ...I think she's gonna come to our yard sale

oh yeah- YARD SALE MY HOUSE THIS SATURDAY LOTS OF CLOTHS!

So Claire says we don't perform @ the end of the conservatory so I think I'm gonna go ahead and get my eyebrow peirced @ the beach. Speaking of which, I want to go to the beach sooooo badly OMG I'm sooo ready for it...*sigh* it's cloudy...it's gonna storm me thinks.

I just realized what an American Eagle junkie I am...I have 2 hoodies, 4 undies, and 13 shirts from AE...only one pair of shorts though, so that's good right?...but I also have a pair of cute girl boxers...my perfume is AE...my purse is AE...the only bracelet I actually wear is AE and I have 2 pairs of flip flops from AE...

I should really shop other places shouldn't I?

oh poo

2004-06-14T19:56:16Z

I don't know if I'll be able to get it peirced now or not...I have the theatre conservatory in July and I think we're putting on a show @ the end of the 3 weeks...anyone who's had theirs peirced, Rose, how long do you have to keep it in before you can take it out after it's been peirced?

Thanks!